I open my shop at dawn
The door makes no sound
I arrange the antiques
Each one in its proper place
A customer enters
I offer tea
We discuss the weather
We discuss the price
I never mention
That I know what she wants before she speaks
That I know what her enemies will do in three days
I just smile
And refill the cup
Behind the smile the numbers run
Probabilities contingencies forks in the path
Every word she spoke: a data point
Every glance: a vector
Every hesitation: confirmation of a hypothesis
The tea was warm
But the warmth was calibrated
The conversation was friendly
But the friendliness was a function
She leaves satisfied
I remain computing
The door closes
The algorithm continues
The city wants me to choose sides
The City Lord's faction the Green Wood Sect the Iron Merchants
Three paths each with its own cost
But I am not walking any of them
I am building a fourth path
Where none of them can reach me
I sell the core technology in three pieces
Each piece to a different buyer
Each piece missing the critical component
Now they need each other
Now they cannot move without me
They think I am patient because I am kind
They are wrong
I am patient because I am angry
And I have learned that anger is most useful
When it is not seen
Every time I smiled at an insult
I was filing it away
Every time I said "it doesn't matter"
I was mattering very much
The storm is not coming
The storm has been here all along
I just built a very good roof
I look at my own reflection in the Observing Mirror
And I see what I have become
A man who is so good at hiding
That he has forgotten what he is hiding
A man who is so warm to others
That he has become cold to himself
A man who calculates every outcome
But never calculates the cost of never being surprised
I am the protocol's most elegant bug
A system that debugs others
While running corrupted code internally