BreakDown

Break Down (Explicit) - Vin Jay

Lyrics by：Vincent Jacovelli

Composed by：Vincent Jacovelli

Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battlin' the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane

Pop a pill have a drink don't break down

Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battlin' the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane

Pop a pill have a drink don't break down

Let's flash back to a moment in time

When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind

With ************ ******* and some smokin aside

When I was broke and overdosed and was hopin' to die

Yeah I guess the damaged of feelin' ****** abandoned

Left me torn so I was slammin'

Like every ** I was handed

I managed 'til I ran out then ravaged through my dad's house

Gather all my **** so I could sell it

For a bag now

I couldn't tell that I was losin' myself

And that the **s only added to confusion I felt

And when the homies hit me up I was refusing to help

'Cause I was busy tryna make a ****** noose with a belt

But I was lonely and sick of feelin' depressed

I was runnin' out of options

And ways to cope with the stress

I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect

'Cause I'm done with the pain

I'd rather hang to my death and say

Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battlin' the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane

Pop a pill have a drink don't break down

Hey livin' like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battlin' the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****** up or I'm insane

Pop a pill have a drink don't break down

I never thought that my life would end when I'm seventeen

Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave

But all this pain I've been feeling

It's time to set it free

Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream

I waited 'til it was late and family was sleepin'

Was thinkin' 'bout death

I wasn't thinkin' 'bout 'em grievin'

I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons

So I crept downstairs time to finally conquer my demons

I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills

Ran 'em back up to my room feelin' hollow with chills

Wasn't nervous I was ready I was confident still

Put a dozen in my palm and started poppin' to kill

Yeah I'm finally doing it time to call in the eulogist

I got what I deserved

I took my life and I ruined it

Thirty minutes later my feelin's started to fade

Went from fallin' out of love to fallin' into my grave

I'm gettin' woozy and passin' out in my bed

I was fadin' in and out a few moments away from death