Direction

Direction - Lil Crazed

I remember as a teen I was blinded by the green

And the name branded things materialistic

Confused kid clothes too big made me a misfit

Rebelled against the rules I was very conflicted

Barely a distance between wrong and right to me

Whatever I did wrong was all right to me

Wanted to be the center of attention

Smoking cigarettes and also entered in detention

Thought to myself that now I'm cool

And transferred to public class from my private school

I continuously disappointed my family

All the way to the point

That my mom and dad couldn't handle me

Broke a few laws that added to my record

And spent a couple nights in the juvenile center

When my mom picked me up and I saw that tear

I began to question all my ways that got me there

Yeah so I spent on my road

I'm the only right law ever know

I'll see my direction

I'll find myself

At 17 caught a case and got convicted

A felon questioning self like why I ever did it

Got in this predicament education escaped my vision

And instead of school I had to figure out the legal system

Took the bargain so they dropped a couple charges

But regardless it didn't blind my father's disappointment

How could it be

That I single handedly crumbled the dreams of my family

About a college degree

I was supposed to be the first to get it I was committed

Then got into this trouble with the crime that I committed

Wondering if it was worth the reason that I did it

All because I wanted to avenge

The worth of my new Honda civic

And the window that was smashed

But looking back at all the facts

It wasn't just the windshield that happened to get shattered

But also a dream that my parents were after

Yeah so I spent on my road

I'm the only right law ever know

I'll see my direction

I'll find myself

A lotta things changed the following year

Like my beverages of choice included alcohol and beer

Now an adult without a future anymore

The moment I threw that punch I threw it out the door

Then the girl that I was seeing started gaining some weight

But it wasn't cuz her diet her period was late

No job no school as if that wasn't enough

The test came back positive but that was a plus

Because I moved down south with her and my folks

And got a couple of jobs as well as their support

Then moved back up and then my first son was born

The future now here dwell the past no more

Then baby number 2 came things are getting clear

Continued to steer on the path of my career

After some bumps find my way to take

Now my fans are like family most of them relate