Barricade

Cause I don't wanna fear you

I can't concentrate

If I keep seeing your face

Showing up in tea leaves

Lit up on my TV

I can't stand up straight

Under your gravity

So I lay awake with my eyes closed

But who can really sleep

When you're counting them high

On your long summer drives

For mercy's sake

Would you look at your life

Would you look at your life

Now I'm not eating

I can't speak up

Under the table my legs are crossed

What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark

What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark

Feeling like I'm someone else who looks the part

I built up barricades to block my heart

Cause I don't wanna fear you

I don't wanna fear you

I can't punctuate

These boneless days

They keep crawling in

Sinking into my skin

I'm under your gravity

Frozen mathematically

And I lay awake with my eyes closed

But who can really move

When you're counting them high

On your long summer drives

For mercy's sake for mercy's sake for mercy's sake

I thought I'd ride all the same roads and skies

For mercy's sake

Would you look at your life

Would you look at your life

And I'm not breathing

I can't speak up

Under the table my legs are crossed

What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark

What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark

Feeling like I'm someone else who looks the part

I built up barricades to block my heart

Cause I don't wanna fear you

What the hell am I doing here in the golden dark

Who'd I think I was

I'll never ride all the same roads and skies because

I'm under your gravity

Frozen mathematically

Crushed between your teeth

I lay awake with my eyes closed

I lay awake with my eyes closed