HousesWeDieIn

And I miss home and I miss the closets the windows the hallways

And when we are gone who will keep up the garden

Like a mother calling her boy I am I am so unsafe

But she can't do it alone

But there's nothing stronger than her prayers

Nothing stronger than the smell of reds

My fathers reds

Under bridges waiting to look forward waiting for rushes ends

Living in the moment is the homeless mantra they know the busiest streets

All we have all we have all we have is letting sleeping dogs lay

All we have all we have all we have is letting sleeping dogs lay

Your face lit up and for once I enjoyed where I was

The truth is jade plants die the truth is muscles atrophy

Softening your skin and hardening mine

I don't know where to begin

I've thought about this day so much

And thought of so many things I've wanted to say

But now now I can only look at you

Like the pictures I spend hours staring at

I don't think I've ever smiled so wide as when you were holding me up

I was given a picture the other day of a past birthday

We were together on our back deck

I remember

You were covered in powdered sugar from the donuts you were eating

I've always loved watching you smile

Do you remember the mornings when we woke up early to ride bicycles

To on the board walk or the night before

My first homecoming when you taught me how to dance

Yes I remember I hope she appreciated all my hard work

I wish I had a different story to tell

I seem I have drifted fairly far away from what you taught me

You were always the

Indecipherable

I'll admit there hasn't been much to smile about since since you left

I didn't leave I fought for five years to stay at your side

What do you remember about that night

I remember a family that loved their wife and mother very much

How can you say that

We were liars

We clung to those songs like we so desperately wanted to Cling to you

Then I don't think you heard the same song I did

You had to know I was lying

You had to know how much I hated myself for smiling like a fool

For spending our last few minutes together deceiving you

Matthew your smile on the face of your greatest

Fear was the greatest gift a mother has ever received from her child

I miss you

I know

Everyone cares

Every eye carelessly tiptoes around you

Watching you

They'll wear black ties

And as they applaud

I'll count claps

Like the fig tree the master cursed

The arms that gave us life

Take so much more