Stayinstead

I don’t text back quick

Leave you on read then think

Stare at the wall rewind

Every small word you said last night

Half cup of coffee cold

Still in your hoodie old

Scroll ‘til my thumb feels numb

Still not ready to let you in but I want some

I’m halfway in my head

Halfway in your bed

Half of me is running

Half of me is begging “stay instead”

I’m halfway when I call

Halfway when I fall

If I give you all of me

Promise you won’t vanish when I finally lose this wall

You say I’m hard to read

Pages stuck slow speed

I laugh I shrug I hide

Change the whole subject every time you catch my eyes

You cook I wash your plates

Say “it’s late ”but hesitate

I stand by the open door

Waiting for a reason to take two more steps not four

I’m halfway in my head

Halfway in your bed

Half of me is running

Half of me is begging “stay instead”

I’m halfway when I call

Halfway when I fall

If I give you all of me

Promise you won’t vanish when I finally lose this wall

Pull me closer don’t push

Say it low in a hush

“If you’re scared that’s fine

Just let your fear lay over mine”(yeah)

I breathe in count to three

Let your hand stay on me

Maybe “halfway”is a start

But I’m so tired of living in the middle of my heart

I’m halfway in my head

Halfway in your bed

Half of me is running

Half of me is begging “stay instead”

I’m halfway when I call

Halfway when I fall

If I give you all of me

Promise you’ll be waiting when I finally lose this wall